… i do but i dont …
life never been so easy… you have to sacrifice something to get something. yeaahhh i learnt this from myKiNg. it is true, life never been so easy. but peoples try to make life as easier as they can eventhough they know it is not worth to do so. mmg semua org nak simple life, senang… tapi kalau asik nak senang je, macam takde nikmat la hidup. org kata, hidup kita ni kalau takde masalah mmg takde kenikmatannya. yeaahh it is true for me, sbb masalah tu sometimes dapat mematangkan kita and sometimes dpt bagi kita experiences yang takboleh kita nak beli dari mana2 kedai pun.
what to tell? my life lately ni quite complicated. tapi it is not a big big probs pun, but i feel that something wrong somewhere. dont know what, dont know why. feel so bored seem ada mende yg takkena. mungkin tu semua perasaan ana je kot ek. takde kena mengena dengan sape2.
sebab tu org kata kehidupan kita ni macam roda, kadang kat atas, kadang kat bawah. tapi for me, mende2 tu ialah atas diri kita sendiri. atas individu tu yg menentukan hidup dia samada di atas atau pun di bawah. ntah la… i have no idea what i wanna say just now. heewww…
last tuesday, i met myKiNg kat area my office. memula rancang nak date kat area damansara, tapi lastly plan dah tukar. we have a lot of chat pas jumpa tu. almaklum lah 10hari tak bertentang mata. fuuhhhh masa nak jumpa dia tuh, rasa cam berdebar2 jek. nape ntah. kot2 sbb dah 10hari takjumpa kot. rasa cam baru nak jumpa mata air pulak. lawak pun ada. i felt so happy yet so sedih. happy sbb i miss him so very much and very excited to meet him. feel so sad jugak sbb dia pun rindu ana tahap dewa dah tu. he talk too much. ana diam. dont know why, i cant say a words pun. sebak sgt agaknye. jumpa2 je, he smiled. he said he missed me so very much. he dont wanna let me leave him dah. dont worry dear, i will never leave you dah pasni. no matter what, we will always be together. taktahu nak ckp camana, tapi myKiNg talk too much pasal rindu dendam dia. and me? i am so speechless. missed him jugak sampai takmampu nak kata apa. let the eyes talk je la kan? sbnrnye i am quite shocked jugak after dia sms me, esok abg jumpa ana ye. esok ana jumpa abg tau!. actually, ana takterfikir pun dia akan dtg jumpa ana dlm waktu terdekat ni sbbnye dia on leave. next monday baru start keje. so, ana takde nak nak imagine yg dia akan turun kl to meet me. congak nye congak, i thought next monday baru dapat jumpa dia. suddently, he decided to meet me as soon as possible. what a great plan dear. thanks. situation perjumpaan tu agak romantic jugak la, i dont know how to tell, tapi words spoken tu semuanya dlm nada yang so very romantic. damn, i am deeply in love with this man! he knows how to control the situation and he really knows how to create the mood. ahaaksss… sembang nye sembang then we going to have our dinner. errmm mana nak makan ni ek. he ask me to decide. ahhaa… secret recipe! as i know la kan, myKiNg ni tak berminat sgt nak g makan kat secret recipe, dia kata mahal sgt. hehehe… me myself pun sbnrnye takkisah. takde la mengidam nak take dinner kat secret recipe tu. it is just nak usik dia je because i know dia takberapa nak setuju kalau makan kat situ. sbb kalau dia taksetuju, then i let him to decide. hehehehe.. simple kan? tetiba dia agreed lak. so ana argue jugak la, aikss nape ok je, kan abg tak berapa berkenan nak makan kat situ. he said, anything for you my sweetheart. kebetulan lak ana tak take lunch on that day. malas nak kuar and ana tahu kitorg nak jumpa, so tunggu dinner dgn dia je la. so, we went to secret recipes. makan sambil borak… feel like macam baru bercinta jek. ahaaksss… alhamdulillah, i am so happy to be with him. masalah ke, gaduh ke, selisih faham tu mmg adat dlm bercinta or even dalam rumahtangga. tapi semua tu atas kita la. how we handle the situation. macam ana dgn myKiNg ni, biasanya any masalah pun kitorg akan berbincang. discuss elok2. cuma ana ni emosi sikit. bukan apa, kenkadang tak terucap apa yg nak diluahkan, sedih and menangis je la. nak amik masa utk luahkan satu2 mende tu mmg payah sikit. thank God la sbb dia jenis yang faham but kenkadang tu macam putus asa jugak. so, we end up our date at about 9pm. kejap je ek? ok la tuh. rindu tu sbnrnya takterubat lagi. tapi takpe la.. insyaAllah, bila ada ruang, leh jumpa lagi ek.
kay, got to go… bye!
