… dreaming my dream …
it’s rainy day… huhhh… yesterday i’m went back at about 630pm. i thought the rain stopped, but in ampang area only. huhh.. i am stucked in the heavy traffic jam. argghhh.. and it’s rain. oohhh goshhh… actually, i really hate and always try to avoid driving in the rain and/or at night. i am not really good driving in this situation. also have a little bit scared actually. the journey from ampang to damansara was so very terrible and it is like a nightmare to me. dgn hujan nye, dgn banjir kategori sederhana sana dan sini. can u imagine. it is only 645pm, tapi it is like 12 midnight, gelap gelita. syukur jugak sebab kereta tak byk sgt. even jalan quite jammed, tapi tak sesesak mana pun. arrived at home 1hour after. myKiNg sent a message, remind me about this weekend nye activities. huhh.. got a lot of things have to be settle in every weekend. have to fulfill invitations of open house, have to visit relatives and families… have to go here and there to to this and that… what a pack day i will go thru.
have nothing to do at home, after solat, baca surah yassin. then, go out to watch tv. no interesting programmes at all. so uh boring. ntv7 presented dari studio 1 with dayang nurfaizah. ahh, i watched it before via astro. tv1, hal ehwal islam, jarang2 sgt tgk slot in only if the topic they discussed really meet my interest. tv2? dont know what the story it is… mahligai gading maybe, tapi because tak follow sgt that telemovie, so feel bored to watch it. then what? tv3.. hmmm.. tv3 still presented the buletin utama sport’s slot. ahh.. not nine yet? what the hell is this, cik na getting bored before nine o’clock? something borthering u hah, cik na? nothing can make me sit in front of the tv and of course i am not the tv person. just sometimes to fill my space jek. smsing with my sis, follow up news after i went back to kl. so far, no probs at all, besides my mum feel so sunyi after me and my along and kaklong going back to kl, and my angah balik ke kerteh. my mum feel so blue while i am not in da house because i am the one yg always turn things up. to laught with my jokes yg ntah apa2… and sometimes, mak ckp.. "dah la dik, mak taklarat dah nak gelak.. macam2 laa budak ni". even i am the one yg always been kerek with my eldest siblings. hehehehee… what to do? tapi mak not really sunyi sbb ayah takkeje dah malam2. ayah cuti 2bulan, but kena jugak buat inspection kat opis dia time2 budak2 dia keje. mana tau kot2 diorg ni curi tulang. lately and as usual pun time2 cuti sekolah ni, ayah takde big projects, so ayah stay at home jek. in between pun, ana and myKiNg ber sms jugak. ahhaa.. biasa la tuh.
time tu sleep… sms punya sms, 12midnight dah. myKiNg pun dah sangap dah. so we went to sleep together2 but different place la. ahaakkss… and actually nya, last night i had a very very ntah apa2nye dream. it will sound so funny, tapi when i think about it, it leave me a message about something. wanna know what is the story came across my sleep last night? read yeah!!!
it is all about a local actors and actress and also a special appearence is the only mr shahrukh khan. ahaaakkkss.. it sound funny heh? takpe, mimpi mmg mcm tu, kenkadang pelik, kenkadang kelakar, kenkadang sedih. org selalu ckp yg mimpi tu kan mainan tido… back to the story of the mimpi tadi ek.. masa tu i am at someone’s house. a married couple. but i am not so sure what is my role in the scene. hehhehee.. hani mohsin married to aida rahim woopsss aida radzwil. and the neighbour is also a married couple. i cant remember the lady, but i cannot forget the man. jalaludin hassan. but if i am not mistaken la, the lady married to jalaludin hassan is ida nerina. not so sure about this. doesnt matter. u guys know what. jalaludin and his wife visit hani mohsin’s house, maybe visiting for the hari raya la kot… what i can see in this scene is that, jalaludin’s wife try to seduce hani mohsin which is aida radzwil’s husband. hehhehee.. as i mentioned ealier in my dream ni, u know maybe the story teller named jj cast by mr shahrukh told me that this two married couples ialah sahabat baik. best friend to each other. family friends camtu la kot, but they are very close. hehehee… this ida nerina trying hard to seduce hani mohsin and in the same time, jalaludin trying to seduce aida radzwil. hehehee… pelik ek? dont know la, it just a dream and let it be. hani mohsin terpikat and terpengaruh jugak la dgn godaan2 ida ni tadi and u know what? si aida radzwil ni maintain je dgn godaan jalaludin hassan. mmg takjejas laa org kata. sampai satu tahap, aida cannot stand it anymore because in front of her pun, ida main2 mata and doing something that over the limit dgn abg mohsin ni. mr shahrukh said, before this, aida never argue about this man and woman relationship because she knows that they are bestfriend yet closefriend ever. but, ida ni very teruja dgn mohsin. so aida decided want to end up the marriage that they built with love, share tears and pain and share everything together. mohsin say nothing macam he let it be like that. dont know what actually happened to him, but he dont mind and dont care about his wife feeling. even it seem like mohsin give no reaction to ida, but who knows kan? kuasa yang ada kat pompuan ni lain sikit. pompuan hanya ada 1akal dan 9nafsu, lelaki ada 9akal and 1nafsu jek.. so, the dream end macam tu jek. mr shahrukh told me something that i bear in mind, there always a limitation in a relationship between woman and man and even husband and wife. if there’s no limitation, everything going so worse. but it just a dream jek, takde kena mengena dgn yg hidup atau yg dah meninggal dunia. ada jugak scene2 yg ana tak ingat, tapi for the summarization, jalan cerita nye macam tu la. takde yang menarik pun sbnrnya.
yeaahhh friendship… relationship… what else? did you guys watch kuch kuch hota hai? rahul khanna said "pyaar dosti" which means "cinta adalah persahabatan". ahaakkss.. tapi tu cerita jek, bukan mende yang real pun. tapi tak mungkin ianya not happened in this real life. bestfriend, at last fall in love. camana? even cite my bestfriend’s wedding pun, the woman yg fall in love kat yg si lelaki. that is why, pompuan ni lain sikit. hati dan naluri pompuan taksama dgn hati dan naluri lelaki. girls being so excited bila ada guy can share everything with her, can be with her, never say no… that is what i think sbb ana pun perempuan. but that also my opinion la, lain org lain pandangannya. because of the friendship, anjali sharma fall in love with rahul khanna even in the same time mr rahul khanna accept miss anjali sharma as his bestfriend and not more than that. the appearence of tina malhotra change everything. rahul fall in love with tina and tina give her love to rahul in return. so the friendship end up when anjali decided to go back to her hometown. sedih kan? rahul never knows yang anjali deeply in love with him. but for him, anjali sacrifice her feeling to make sure rahul feel happy with his lovely sexy tina. ahaakksss… berbalik pada cerita my bestfriend’s wedding pulak… julianne potter fell in love with her bestfriend, michael o’neal the day he decided to marry someone else. and then she tried hard to get back her bestfriend after she realised that she love him so very much… hehehee.. that is all about. u guys watch the movie la, so you guys will know.
me myself admit that i have a lots of boy friend. bestfriend and even a closefriend. pendek kata, all my friend ialah lelaki. kawan perempuan takde ke? yeahh i got also, tapi boleh kira dgn jari for the best girlfriend la. kawan pompuan lain pun mmg ramai la, my schoolmates, classmates, housemates blaa blaa blaaa… tapi yg really2 boleh jadik kawan when ups and downs mmg takramai. or ada la satu dua org je, yg really can share things macam yg ana can share with my kawan lelaki aka bestfriends lelaki. girls talk to much. talking rubbish, here and there always rumours and gossips, quite cerewet.. i talk about girls la ni, the same sex as i am. this is my point of view based on my experiences berkawan dgn perempuan, tapi taksemua perempuan macam tu, and nowadays, masing2 semua dah besar2, dah matured, dah get married and have kids… so dah ilang la zaman2 yang macam tu. and lately ni i got a lots of girlfriends. know why hah? because of myKiNg laa.. i dont wanna get involved dah dgn kawan2 lelaki yg biasa tuh, it is not end up the relationship, tapi hubungan tu tak sebebas dulu. every single step i take, mesti ada limit because ada hati yang perlu di jaga. myKiNg takde kongkong ana pun, but as a woman, muslim woman exactly, i have to notice about the limitation berkawan dgn lelaki. before this i dont really mind. i enjoyed myself being with them.
teringat masa raya 2 or 3years ago, my along suddenly asked me after a group of my friends datang beraya kat umah. time2 berkemas tu, my along asked "dik, adik along ni takde kawan perempuan ke?" ahaakss.. i am quite shoecked jugak la. you know what? i just realized, every year raya pun, i never get a visit from my girl friends. and even i dont visit them. aarrggghhhh… along continue "tiap2 tahun kengkawan adik yang dtg, mesti lelaki… pelik along laa." then, i hang up the phone and rang my friend’s house belakang my house. "haa na, apa cite?" i replied "weii… dtg umah aku la wehh, along aku bising ah takde kawan perempuan dtg umah aku." and she replied… "laa ye ke? dont worry aku gi cover kau." and started on that day, this is only kawan perempuan yg dtg beraya kat umah ana. and lama2 i started to kumpulkan balik my kawan2 perempuan.. ahaaksss… and this year, sebelum fasting month ni, my ex-housemate kena posting keje kat kuala terengganu. she dont have any friends or relatives there, also not really familiar with the place. so i invited her to stay at my house and after that if she wanna move, she can move la. taknak move pun takpe, because my mum dont mind pun she stay longer, kena posting about 3months jek. mana la tahu, within the days, she meet her officemates ke, and wanna stay together kan.. so, for the beginning, i suggest her to stay at my place. i call my mum first la to ask for the permission. "mak, kawan adik kena keje kat kuala terengganu 3bulan, boleh tak stay kat umah kita dulu sbb dia takde sedare and no friends kat sana. dia ckp kalau dia dah familiar and dah ada kawan or dpat umah sewa, dia move la." my mum replied "laa.. takpe laa.. datang je dulu, jgn susah2 nak cari umah lain. pe2 hal, datang sini, nanti tahu la mak uruskan camana." "haaaaa… thanks mummy!!!" then mak sambung lagi "elok la tuh, kot2 nanti leh baik2 dgn kak lang ke, mana tahu kan…" aiiyaaakkk mummy…. "mak, kawan adik ni pompuan la mak!!!." aiseehhhh… mummy replied "mana la mak tahu, kawan adik kan biasanye lelaki… ooo dah ada kawan pompuan lak skrg ye?" pedih nya telinga time tu.. come on la mum, your daughter dah change laa.. hehhehehee… skrg ni, kawan lelaki ke, kawan pompuan ke sama jek. cuma ada sorg je kawan baik, kawan rapat, best friend and close friend till the end of time, the only one– myKiNg! no more din, no more midie, no more duan so on and so forth… just a few names mentioned here. they only can be my friend, takleh dah jadik geng sekepala cam dulu2. ahaakksss!!! no more football kat stadium, no more tracking, no more mount climbing, no more rempit. heheheheheeee… and now i got nyex, jan, azura, sotong, cuya as my girlfriends. a few names je i list out.
and myKiNg also, he got a long list of kawan perempuan.. ahaakss.. tapi balance la dgn kawan lelaki dia. and me? tak balance pun. hehehehee… sbnrnya for me, doesn’t matter la kalau ada dia ada kawan perempuan ke, and i got alot of kawan lelaki ke… yg penting hati. cewaahhhh… simple je. and me, i have to avoid kawan dgn kawan2 lelaki ni because a few of them pun dah get married, someone’s fiancee or ada makwe. so then, kenkadang kelakuan kita yang biasa pun akan nampak over kat partner diorg. so, to avoid mende2 yg taksepatutnya exist dalam relationship diorg, i have to create the border. bukan putus kawan terus kan.. takbaik la macam tu. tapi ada limit dan batas2 yang perlu dijaga. i have to take care about myKiNg’s feeling in the top priority even kalau mende tu he dont borther at all, but then i also have to jaga hati pasangan2 diaorg ni pulak kan… friendship still remains, no matter what pun.
huhhhh… cik na talk too much la!!! banyak nye cik na wrote! tak sedar pun. it is all about the dream jek in the beginning. ahaaakkksss wink wink!!! ok la.. dah byk sangat tu… my fingers wanna have a rest! yeehaaa… till then, see ya! take care!
