… a SiMPLe mE …

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song: korban cinta by aris ariwatan. ana suka dgr lagu ni, the way diorg sing this song so good laa. Sedap didengar. and i think suitable jugak for my blog today. errmmmssss… korban cinta. sacrifice… what to say hah?!! kenkadang kalo ikut dari one pint of view, this is quite sensitive topis to tell, but in another point of view rasanye boleh dikongsi utk dijadikan teladan.. hehehee.. macam kisah dan tauladan lak ek.

last night we had a long conversation jugak… he told me a lot of things, about relationship, about sacrifices, about love, about life. everything is for our own good. i’ve got a lot of things last niight, and i think a lot.. sampai tido lewat ntah kul brapa… as usual la.. bila dia say something, i never give my comments sbb i have to think first. that is my way, dari dulu pun. org pompuan ni mmg kena control they way she think. sbb pompuan takpenah ada limit or break dlm berfikir. so, pikir je apa yg nak pikir, tak pikir dah mende lain. but for me,  i really need a space to rethink about whatever i’ve learned. it is not easy being in love. i experienced a lot of things, even not experienced it by my own, but i know it well. your give and take, your sacrifices, your strengths to go thru it all.. everything lah.

myKiNg sacrifice a lot for me… even i also doing the same thing tapi what he has done is more than world. sometimes i feel that i am not qualified to get his love. just look at myself, i am not pretty enough, i am so naughty, not really matured, always playing around as long as i have fun ahaaksss, and as he said that i am o stubborn!!! but for him, he is so patient, accept me as what i am. shame on me ya?!! i really love him not because he done a lot of things for me, not because he sacrifice everything for me, i love him for what he is. himself. it is just a first sight of love. i dont wanna lose him. i’ll die living without him. he is my world!!!

sayang, i am so sorry for what i have done. actually it is not because the reason of ‘it’s me, dah ana mcm tu, ana nak buat camana..’. it’s not that. it is just something that i cant think deeply. dont know how. errmmmsszzz… nak ckp camana ek to explain?.. i think u understand kan dear. both of us ada kureng and ada lebihnye.. semua org pun camtu. cuma kita mungkin lain sikit drpada diorg sbb kita ni totally 110% different. takde mende yg sama, cuma kita berkongsi satu rasa, perasaan yg payah utk diungkapkan dgn kata2. kita ada cinta yg maha agung ni. kita jarang berselisih pendapat, kalau ada pun biasanye kita akan duduk dan bincang elok2. kita jarang berkecik hati, kalau ada pun kita biasanye akan duduk luahkan apa yg kita rasa… tapi tu laa.. as usual, ana mmg takde apa nak ckp. diam seribu bahasa. tang ni mmg ana takmampu nak ubah dah sayang. u know me. i am so fragile, sensitive. even takreti nak luahkan mende2 tu time tgh2 sedih. and i try hard not to do so. biasanye ana akan diam dulu, kasik reda  rajuk ana, then baru kita discuss.. org pompuan ni kalo time marah suka ckp yg ntah apa2. so, to avoid yg ntah apa2 tu.. ana kena cool kan diri ana mcm tu la.. taknak keadaan jadik makin kronik. mmg kala tu ana sedih.. tanggung rindu kat abg lagi, mmg pilu laa bila ada masa2 kejadian yg mcm tu menimpa. but i think, it’s better to give u a silent treat, dr ana ckp mende2 yg ntah apa2 yg ana sendiri taktahu patut ke takpatut ana ckp mende2 mcm tu… u got me or not? then, silent is the best laa.. ana diam pun bukannye lama kan yang… jap jek. and thank GOD jugak sbb u are very good dlm pujuk memujuk ni… hehehe.. as i told u before la, ana merajuk abg pujuk, abg merajuk, abg gak yg pujuk ana. ahaakksss!!! u such a great man.

frankly speaking laa.. i am so happy being with myKiNg. he is so superb, 24hours daily always wanna make me laugh, nak ana senyum. cuma kekurangan ana ni la.. sikit2 je nak nangis. ye la kan… fragile la tuh. suka pun kenkadang nangis gak.. terharu pun nangis gak. nak wat camana… dah industan tu industan gak la yang.

ana sentiasa nak yg terbaik for myKiNg, sama dgn dia.. nak the very best for me! that is why la kot sometimes mende kat situ ada clash. lain2 takde masalah. tapi mende2 mcam tu as usual, mende kecik je. hehhehee.. cuma ana ni laa.. ana admit. tu la rempah ratus org bercinta kot ek sayang?

kita sama2 ada kurang, dan kita sama2 jugak ada kelebihan. bezanye, kat mana kita lebih dan kat mana kita kurang tu taksama. sbb tu kita opposite. we completed each other. kan sayang? i got to stop writing, something mess me up. will continue later. dear, thanks for everything, even my life cant pay what u did for me! love u till the end of time!

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