… a SiMPLe mE …

huhhhh… getting busy lately, help myKiNg buat thesis master dia. so, mcm takde idea je nak write something kat sini. feel so sleepy. what’s up? ana from kajang this morning. yesterday, i surprised myKiNg for the 3rd time dlm bulan ramadhan ni jek. ahahahhahaa… last week ana takbalik kajang pun sbb sibuk men shopping kan diri. so, myKiNg ada request suh ana balik kajang on thursday memandangkan ujung minggu ni ana nak balik terengganu.. balik kampungggg o o o balik kampunggggg ahaaakkksss… so ana ckp kat myKiNg, ana taktahu lagi. takleh nak janji lagipun kain baju and bilik ana belum berkemas lagi. nak tinggalkan umah dlm masa seminggu la katakan… hehehehe… ptg semlm, dr office ana terus je balik kajang. taknak susah2 kan dia dtg amik ana. lagipun ana nak suprised kan dia kan. tapi dia nye plan nak amik ana kat umah sewa ana. tapi kalo camtu, jadik lmbt lak kitorg sampai kajang. so, as his wish ana tetap balik kajang. ‘anything for you, my dear…’ sampai kajang, mak pun tergezut tgk ana sampai. mak ingat ana balik dgn myKiNg. ana ckp ana balik sorg, abg taktahu pun. mak sengih jek. then as usual… ana pun sembang2 jap dgn mak. mak pun nak ke dapur memasak. ana pun nak g mandi. sementara tu, as usual bila dia on the way balik, i will give him a call. sama la cam semlm. ana call dia on the way back tu. sambil2 baring atas katil dia… kitorg sembang2. jap2 tu suara adik sepupu dia menjeritt.. isshh terkantoi la pulak. dia tanye sape tu. ana ckp la ana taktahu sbb ana kat dlm. ahaakkkss.. budak2 kat luar kot. hehehehehe… sembang nye sembang… ana pun tgk jam dah kat kul nam. issskkk kalo ana takmandi ni, maunye dia sampai umah kang ana takmandi lagi, sbb as usual kitorg akan sembang sehiggalah dia sampai kat pintu pagar umah dia. so, ana ckp ana nak mandi, dia lak nak sembang lagi dgn ana. dia nak ana teman dia. alahaiii cam cian lak, tapi takdapek la nak nolong. then ana ckp ana nak masak, sbnrnye nak tolong2 mak masak.. dia kata takyah… isshhh dia ni… ana pujuk nye pujuk.. ok la dia kasik ana gi mandi. then pas tolong mak masak sikit sebanyak, ana layan tv sambil lipat baju. kejap tu dlm 630pm dia sampai. ahaaksss… surpriseee!!!! dia sengih2 jek.. pastu dia ckp.. ‘ooo ana tipu abg ek’ ehhehee.. mana ada tipu sayang… betul dah tuh. hehehehe… taktahu nak ckp camana, tapi as long as ana mampu, ana akan tunaikan setiap permintaan abg. selagi tulang empat kerat ni berdaya, selagi tu la ana korbankan hanya utk abg. ehehhehee… huhhh… i will write later lak ek. ada hal sikit… huhuuhuhu… utk semua, happy deepavali and happy aidilfitri. take care and drive carefully. ana nak mohon maaf kalau2 ada tulisan atau perlakuan ana yg menyinggung mana2 pihak. sorry.

[ s e l a m a t h a r i r a y a a i d i l f i t  r i ]

[ d e n g a n i n g a t a n t u l u s i k h l a s ]

[ d a r i : a n a a n d t h e k i n g ]

al-fatihah utk pemergian datin seri endun mahmud dan exco pemuda malaysia haji mazlan ke rahmatullah pada tarikh arini october 20, 2005 bersamaan 16 ramadhan 1426. al-fatihah………………………………………………………..

so, wwaazzzzzuupppp?!!! i am so really boring arini. geng2 kat twintech dah takleh nak ym sbb semua software yg berkenaan dan sewaktu dgn yahoo messenger, including msn, skype dah diblocked. oleh yg berkenaan, ana pun terasa keboringan nye. coz, ana takleh nak chat dgn myKiNg, my friends yg keje sana. huaaahhhh bosannye! arini takde cerita yg menarik. semlm break my fast with myKiNg kat under one roof ‘pizza hut’. org ramai gak lak… kitorg pun masuk restaurant pun dah lewat dah sbb myKiNg asik duk usha ana jek, coz ana takperasan pun dia dah sampai.. then dia pun takde nak tegur2 ana. issshhh saje je dia ni. errmmm… myself still thinking about the big suprise which myKiNg said last 2days. i am so excited, but yet so shocked. ahaakksss… dont know how to tell, cant explain at all. else? myKiNg been sooo busy arini sbb esok public holiday. he going to finish his assignments, projects within today seem esok takkeje, and tomorrow we will spent the whole day for shopping. ahaaksss!!! then saturday dia ada kelas. kalau ada ym pun, for sure tak dpt nak chat dgn dia. takpe la kan yang. buat la keje abg. byk lagi task abg tuh.

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today is monday. macam kat sekolah rendah lak ek. errmm school days… best nye! last friday, cuti nuzul Quran, so i organised a gath with my old school friends. alhamdulillah, the gath is so very wonderful. i had a great time there besides, myKiNg pun attended the gath. kitorg sampai quite late jugak sbb ada traffic jam near klcc, jalan ampang. kitorg on that date, gi shopping sakan kat sogo, then going to find a few things lagi kat suria klcc. but alhamdulillah kitaorg sampai kat nelayan restaurant on the dot jek. time2 bukak puasa. at the entrance, i saw my long-lost friend. zura with her hubby. no baby laa.. cess.. dia takbawak lak anak dia. ingat kan bwk baby, tapi she got a good reason there. takpe la.. next time i’ll meet your dear dotter ye. it’s a really great time i had with you guys! first, wanna say a lot of thanks to dear friends; arshad and wife ( as i informed, arshad is the first yg arrived kat nelayan, and one more thing yg ana tak puashati is that, wife dia tu.. ana mcm familiar sgt laa) but zura said that, wife arshad cam muka ana. hehehehe… agaknye tu yg familiar kot sbb ari2 ana tgk muka ana kat cemin, so familiar sgt la bila tgk wife arshad. then untuk amir yg dtg so solo and single.. but rasanye tak solo kot mamat ni. utk ally yang direct dari opis kot, or somewhere yg relate dgn job dia. huhhh… mmg berjaya2 je warga sulaimanians kita ni. nice to meet you back ally. next time dtg berdua la ye. then untuk rizal our class rep a.k.a my officemate skrg ni. utk mat parid and partner ( i cant believe that this guy aaaa… cool laa.. actually he is someone yg suka jumpa kengkawan, so thanks sbb sudi participate. and, u got a babe dah skrg ek. nice girl u have. congratulation to both of u. hoping that u guys will be happy together. jgn lama2 sgt kapel tu ek). and lastly, special thanks goes to my beloved king. ahaaaksss… at last, his appearance to the crowd. my side la coz ana jarang sgt bawak dia hang out dgn my friends seem he is too busy and kenkadang takde space to attend my gath with my friends. thanks dear, your present make secara taklangsung pun make myself so very happy even penat sgt seharian berjalan2 kat sogo and klcc tuh. we had a chat among the sulaimanians… seronok. zura’s hubby also make the gath great jugak. boleh tahan jugak husband ko ek zura. pandai ko cari. boleh masuk mana2 majlis ni. elok la tuh. masa gath tu, ana and myKiNg have to go back early jugak. tapi tetiba tgk jam, dah kat kul sepuluh. cannot go dah ni, org lain pun dah beransur dah, tinggal kita je. tapi by hook or by crook, we have to leave them. esok pagi nye, myKiNg ada kelas master dia, and on sunday morning dia ada final exam. he might be so tired. but i still pray hoping that dia tak diserang migrain. so, we are the first yg balik… go home with a very2 wonderful moments in my mind. hehhehehee…

esok nye sabtu. got a few plans sblm nak balik beraya ni. nak gi shopping lagi utk my nephew and irham. so, i planned nak ke sogo. tapi punye la malas nak bgn, mak datuk aii… tapi pegi jugak la sbb takleh nak lengah2 sbb kalo sempat kang, i planned nak balik kajang. shopping nye shopping nye shopping… i met my buddy kat sogo tu. mimie k. dgn family dia excluding husband dia, tapi baby dia ada. her mom, her dad and siblings. have a short talk je, coz dia pun sibuk shopping and me myself tgh carikan something for myKiNg. dah siap dekat 2jam round kat gents department tu, i found something for myKiNg. dah gi bayar, then i went upstairs lak, shopping utk budak bijan. crowded dassaaattt tahap dewa dah kat atas ni. ramai sgt budak2. ye la.. mana pun kids department. mak ayah sibuk pilih baju untuk anak2, anak2 lak sibuk main nyorok2 kat celah2 baju2 yg tergantung tu. ahaaakkss.. terbisik lak dlm hati ana ‘cik na… sok2 ko dpt baby, macam ni la gaya nye kot.. hehehhehehee’ aku sengih le sensorg. so, dah dpt sepasang baju utk danis bijan and irham. ana gi bayar. pastu have to wait for my friend lak, dia g pertama complex. sementara tunggu minah tu, congak nye congak.. i haven’t bought anything for me during this raya. ahaa.. takpe je. i feel so glad dpt buy something for myKiNg and the kids. i am not so sure la.. pas kawin sok, dah jadi mummy, agaknye i prepare nothing for myself. yg penting utk myKiNg and my kids. to see them happy, ana rasa dua kali ganda happy. my mum? i did bought something for my mum, cuma budget kali ni takdapat nak beli utk the whole family macam last year. last year ana shopping utk dua family sekaligus. my family and his family. alhamdulillah rezeki kat Brunei tu tahun lepas, semua org merasa la duit ana keje kat Brunei tuh. but, this year ana belikan mak cookies raya je. lagipun budget kena pantau la sikit sebyk, sbb nak kawin ni kan… ahaaksss… after all, i feel so happy sbb i prepared something for my dear KiNg. balik tu, ana taksempat nak balik kajang. dah ptg sgt, and myKiNg, balik kelas master dia tghari tu, kena migrain lak. takpe laa kasik dia rehat je laa.. then i’ve plan activity utk esoknye pulak. sunday. ahahh… nak gi coket sbb nak beli a few things yg takcukup utk wed ana nanti. so, takleh nak balik kajang arini. esok paginye awal2 lagi ana and my friend gi coket. errmmm alamak, amoiyyy ni buatkan bunga pahar khas utk ana lak. hehehehe.. cantik jugak la.. ana beli jek, tapi pe2 hal pun nak kasik mak tgk dulu, kaloo mak tak bekenan, amoiyy tu ckp, leh pulangkan balik. amoiyy tu dgn staff dia mmg baik laa… mmg ramah layan customer. barang2 kat kedai dia pun murah. dah siap kat coket, ana g lowyatt plaza, nak cari pen drive for my sis. dia kirim. so, before balik kg ni, ana nak setel semua mende laa.. dah siap tuh, i give myKiNg a call, dia dah abih final exam. accidently, on the dot, dia tgh nak send message kat ana. wanna tell me, dia and cousin dia nak gi klang, myKiNg nak tukau sportrim. hehehehehehee… ahaaakss.. ana siap pesan lagi kat dia rim camana2 je yg boleh. ikut ana nye spesification lak tuh. ahaaakss.. malu jek. kete dia, ana lak yg lebih2. dia nak kena tukau rim, sbb rim yg pakai skrg ni dah byk cacat cela nye. so, utk keselamatan jalanraya, mmg kena tukau la. ptg balik ke rumah my friend yg ikut tadi. ana budget balik awal, tapi minah tu and housemate dia ajak gi jusco lak. issshhh abih lagi la duit ana ni kang. nak taknak ikut la jugak. my friend tu ajak jugak and jugak and jugak. so, cam taknak la hurt dia sbb tadi pun dia dah teman ana gi coket and lowyatt. ikut jugak la.. round2 kat jjusco tu, sampai la kul 4 plus plus. ana dpt la satu suit punjab utk budak bijan. mmg comel, boleh le dia pakai utk tido2… hehehee.. mesti cute je dia tu nanti. dah sampai umah my friend, ana terus ask to go home. takleh nak stay lagi la.. nak berkemas lagi. then on the way balik umah lak, jalan jem siottt… kat sejam ana caugh in the traffic. sampai umah kul 5 plus pluss… call myKiNg bgtahu dia ana dah sampai umah. dia pun on the way balik kajang. then a few minutes tu myKiNg call ana lak. pun bgtahu dia dah sampai umah. and he asked me, tak balik kajang ke? ana ckp taksempat dah. esok je la kita jumpa sbb monday ni dia nak bawak ana bukak puasa dgn officemate dia. dah 4-5kali gak dia tanye ana balik kajang ke tak… rasanye mmg takdpt la. i am so sorry my dear. got to settle up a few things before ana balik trg. ciann dia. so, that is all la secara kesimpulannye. taklarat dah nak taip. i’ll write later laa.. cau cin cauuu

quite busy with my phone lah yesterday. since early in the morning. my mum called more than twice dah ni. got a few calls for the old friends, call from the cosmopoint hr dept, call from ‘private number’. uuuaaahhhh… busy answering the phone je la cik na arini. the conversation with mummy is really exciting la.. everytime pun will be like that. never talk less than 15minutes. always more than that eventhought dah called 2-3times before that on the same day. ahaaksss.. that’s my mummy. ada je story to share. ahaaksss.. story nye semlm pasal budak bijan ni laa.. my notti notti nephew. huhhh… so notti la this kid. age baru 2tahun setengah, tapi ckp bukan main lagik. kejap2 my mum kena call me sbb budak bijan suh wan dia call me "wannn.. wann tipun maksu…" 2-3kali gak la my mum call sbb this boy wanna talk to me. mak ckp byk kali dah dia suh mak call, tapi mcm2 alasan la mak bg. takde keje la nak layan sgt dia mcm tu. kang dah terbiasa layan kang, manje terlebih lak dia. dah my mum ckp ana ada keje, dia leh sound lak kat my mum… "waannn maksu keje ke? wannn… wannn tipun paksu lak ekk…" my mum apa lagi… dipicit2 la pipi si bijan ni.. geram. dah takdapat dgn maksu, nak ckp dgn paksu dia lak. my mum said la paksu keje. ahaakksss.. dia takpuas hati jek… oiihhh paksu dia tu myKiNg laa… ahaakss!! mummy said that on the previous day tu mak mintak tolong dia pijak belakang mak, then 2-3 langkah je pijak belakang mak, dia ckp dia penat dah.. dah lenguh. then dia suh wan dia bgn… dia amik bantal mak then dia meniarap mcm mak tadi and guess what? dia ckp "wann.. wan pijak lakang danis lak wann.." cessss… hampehhh nye budak bijan. dia ingat dia cukup besar kot nak suh org pijak belakang dia. and other conversation between mak dgn dia lagi, mak saje ngadu kat dia mak sakit, then si kenet ni say to his lovely granny ni "wann gi la doctor!" issshhh my mum mengucap panjang la terkenangkan cucu dia sorg ni… pandai benar berckp. tapi ok laa at least terubat la kesunyian mak tu… lonely i am so lonelyyyyy… ahaaksss… ye laa.. during ramadhan ni, ayah pun biasanye berbuka kat surau. mummy and my sis je la buka kat umah. tapi as i know sepanjang ramadhan ni, mak mmg masak la memandangkan anak mak yg sorang lagi tu berpuasa. irham, dia bukan nak makan dgn mama dia. dia nak lauk yg mak masak gak. so nak taknak, mak kena masak jugak la.. kesian. takut dia takkenyang sbb esok2 nye nak puasa lagik. irham, ada tokoh jadi abg yg baik laa.. even dlm family dia, dia paling bongsu and sgt2 disayangi oleh ramai org dlm family. dgn budak bijan, dia asik la mengalah. mmg taktunggu budak kenet tu nangis, irham mmg ada tokoh jadik abg. mungkin sbb kitorg pun dah ajar dia camtu. mmg kesian tgk dia sejak budak bijan ada, tapi tu laa.. my mum pun still sayang dia sbb he is a very good boy. takmelawan, dgr kata… alhamdulillah and harap2 sampai besar la dia mcm tu. ok.. mak cite apa lagi ek? secara ringkasnye laa…

• "mak takbuat cookies raya kot dik, but as usual u got the request from your angah untuk buat his favourite cookies that he only want to eat if only u make it. so, balik la cuti raya awal sikit. kecian gak kat dia, sbb raya ni dia tak cuti."
• "adik nye barang2 kawin 90% semua dah siap.. dah berkotak2 dah ni. kaklang tolong gak la mak sikit2, tu pun ikut mood dia laa. takpe laa."
• "semlm along called tanye kalo2 mak nak kirim apa2. tapi rasanye takde la kot. korang dah selamat balik pun mak bersyukur sgt."
• "ayah buka kat surau, kenkadang kalo takkeje dia tolong2 org2 surau ti berkemas sampai terawih. malam baru balik. sini lak.. tok imam kat sini tiap2 ari khatam kan se Quran. baca sikit nye panjang. buat lapan rakaat pun sampai kul 1030pm, even kalo ikut pengertian ni, terawih adalah solat yg rehat."
• "budak2 tu pas terawih semua turun sini. sampai tertido2. kul berapa diaorg balik kenkadang mak pun taksedar sbb mak pun tido awal gak."
• "kuih mak antar kat cik nik laku jek. tiap2 hari abih." bagus la tu mak, dah rezeki mak la tuh."
• "irham exam ni… taktahu la camana exam kali ni…"
• "dik, mak ada tgk iklan kat tv pasal majalah rasa. cam best je tgk majalah resepi tu. adik tolong belikan utk mak ek. tadi mak tgk dlm wanita hari ini pun ada dia promote."
• "menantu mak apa khabar? sihat ke? elok2 tau, jgn gaduh2. adik tu suka sgt menyakat dia, kesian kat dia tau."

hikhikhikksss… tu la sikit sebyk conversation motter-dotter. miss them so much, tapi alhamdulillah jugak la sbb ana still ada kat malaysia. tak macam last year puasa kat Brunei. so, takrasa perantau sgt laa… tapi still syahdu gak bila dgr lagu2 raya yg lama2 tuh. errmmm arini dah 15 puasa. so, kat era.fm dah main lagu raya sikit2 dah. ok la tuh. errmm apa lagi ek? scroll up jap……………………………

got a few calls form old friends. ajak berbuka puasa la.. suh organised gath utk raya laa… ajak jumpa laa.. nak kenal myKiNg laaa.. aarrrggghhhh… apa depa nih? utk organised any event, function or gath raya, since last year ana dah letak jawatan dah. kasik org lain lak la yg organised. ahaaksss… since pas sekolah, i am the one yg organised mende2 tu. mmg byk pengalaman pahit manis, tapi skrg rasa mcm nak jadi jemputan je, taknak dah organised mende2 ni. and ada jugak yg called asking me about the gath during this ramadhan ni. bukak puasa la tuh. so far, menjadik je. ramai ke, takramai ke. buat tetap buat. hehehehe… malas nak pikir2 dah. tu je le. ada jugak yg suka2 hati dia je ckp "eh na, ko ni betul ke nak kawin? aku dgr cite ko dah tunang dah. bertuah la tunang ko. tapi aku musykil la.. betul ke cik na kawan aku yg suka makan cekelat and ice-cream tu dah nak kawin dah…" dah le depa ckp camtu, pastu siap gelak. gelak yg leh eja lak tuh. "kah kah kah kah kahhh kah kah kah" wooiiitttt korang!!! utk korang yg ckp camtu kat ana, ni haa ana nak bgtahu "ana nak kawin la.. betul la ana dah tunang. apa la korang ni, nanti dtg la umah ana. nanti ana ajak korang dtg masa ana kawin. tgk la nanti sape bakal suami ana tuh. ahaaakssss… ana nak show-off kat korang" heheheheee issshhh cik na, ada ke bakal suami pun nak show-off? abih tu ye la.. depa tak caye sgt. hahhhh amik. isshhhh apa ana merepek ni. dah cutt! tau la korang nantiii… korang ingat korang je buleh kawin ek. hahahahaahaaa…

errmmm got a call from cosmopoint. "hello cik hana, i am expecting your call yesterday. so, how is it?" and i replied "sorry, i cant make it. if you send me to kuala terengganu, i can laa." she replied back "then, it ok la." cluckkk… she hang-off the phone. huuuaaahhhhh i missed one opportunity. myKiNg tak approve for me to go to Penang. jadik lecturer cosmopoint. takpe la.. no regret. bukan rezeki ana kot. lagipun we will be so very busy pas raya ni sbb waktu nak ijabkabul pun dah taklama mana dah. got to lot of things nak kena setel. so, pejam mata je la.. lupakan peluang tu. takpe la sayang, insyaAllah ada rezeki lain ek.

‘private number’ is a called from a private person. ahaaakssss no lah. actually i’m not answering the call pun. danger beb. anything for myKiNg actually. the book is closed. so harap2 takde apa la yg taksepatutnye berlaku pasni. woopsss.. got the call again. the number appears on my phone’s lcd. oihhh.. what he wants? no.. no need to answer la. ok dah. takde dah. heheheheee… muuaahhhhssss sayang abg!

ahaaksss.. last night bukak puasa dgn myKiNg’s opismate. i am so glad being there with him. he said that i am so happy. yes i am. soooo very happy to be beside him. kawan dia ckp "eehhh suka nye tgk korang." actually this is not the first statement la.. dah byk his friends also my friends yg ckp camtu. "best nye tgk korang. " ihhiiikkzzzz… apa yg besh nye pun kitorg takpaham. dah kitorg camtu. dah mmg camtu la ek yang. happening jek kot. rasanye takjugak. dah mmg biasa camtu. happy jek. takde la havoc mana, takde la happening mana… biasa2 jek. biasa jek. macam kapel2 lain jugak. tapi tu ah, kawan dia semlm tu quite skema gak. risau gak ana sbnrnye sembang dgn dia. takut dia terkecik hati ke dgn cara ana sembang. sbb tu laaa.. semlm pun myKiNg sempat jugak ckp… "haaa tgk tu… u r playing around. org tu tgh cerita tuh" ahaakss.. it is not my intention la dear. taksengaja la kot. send my sorry to them ye kalo ana mengong sikit semlm. abg bagi la apa2 reason yg sepatutnye. thanks dear. then kawan dia yg umur 23 ek yang? umo zu tu 23 ek? haa… dia ckp nampak ana lagi muda dr dia. ahaksss sbb ana byk main2 kot. tapi semlm kak yati pun byk gelak ek. hahahaa.. kelakar la ana ni. huhuhuuhuhuuhu.. puji diri sendiri lak tuh. mesti abg tgh sengih kan baca blog ana ni?!!! ckp kat both of them, sorry kalo ana terkasar bahasa ke.. buat lawak buduss ke.. ek yang.

semlm myKiNg gave me a big suprise. nak jot down kat sini pun cam takmampu jek. for the timing i wanna keep it myself. will share with you guys later ya. sbb terkujat (terkejut) sgt semlm, ana sampai lupa nak say thanks to GOD. alhamdulillah. walaupun saat ni ana masih terkujat and kureng yakin for what happened, tapi ana still bersyukur. bersyukur sgt2. tapi i wanna get the details from u nanti ek. tunggggguuuuu… ah boring nye abg takleh online. arini satu kelas je pulak tu kan sayang? ok.. got to stop. rasanye dah byk sgt ana tulih ni. continue nanti ek. happy ramadhan.

… never miss an opportunity to make a person happy; even if it means leaving them alone to do so …

ahaaakkssss… to miss surya a.k.a my reference a.k.a my sis a.k.a a person that selalu jugak ask for my opinion regarding to the life. she now happily married, and now she’s waiting for the new comer in their marriage life. how great kan? thanks sis. actually that is how i learned. and i believe that all of us pun learn the same thing but in the different ways. we dont even know how something is going on, how something is blaaa blaaa blaaaa until we ourselves go thru mende2 tuh kan? life never been sooo easy. you faced the really tough experiances, and you can go thru even though it is very hard. kan? and now, you have a great life with the great family. i am so happy for you. recite the doa, insyaAllah Dia mesti tolong kan?

errmmm nak cite apa ek? ahha… semlm ana teman myKiNg gi bukak puasa kat dewan perdana felda, kampeni dia dpt invitation, but a few of them je. ajk utk kelab kebajikan. nice food they got there. and the cheese cake a very very yummmy! lagi apa ek? opening tu, kitorg makan nasik biryani, pastu 2nd round myKiNg amikkan ana laksa johor. after that i go and take a few pieces of cake. tapi mmg le, cheese cake dia mmg sedap ah… tapi takleh lawan gak la secret recipe nye cakes. takramai pun staff diaorg yg attend the event. tapi ada la jugak. ahhaaa.. i feel like so malu jugak. coz i know a few of them since ana belajar kat kolej tu. and after that, jadi lecturer kat situ. and now, i will be a part of the company’s family. rasa mcm semlm tu ikut lecturer ana gi bukak puasa jek. hehehee… malu gak. tu ah cik na, sape suh ngorat lecturer.. haaa kan dahhhh… hikhikhikhikkssss… i feel happy la. really enjoy myself. kat dewan perdana tu pun very crowded, ramai yg bukak puasa kat sana and non-muslim pun ada teman yg muslim bukak puasa. ok la tu, negara berbilang kaum la katakan ek. siap ada performance from kumpulan nasyid lagi tu. kumpulan intim perfomed on that night. bagus la jugak… else? pastu bukak puasa, before nine kitorg dah gerak balik… alhamdulillah kenyang and seronok jek. balik, apa lagi. ana pun busy nak mengemas la… sbb dr kajang kan, so ada la laundry sikit sebayk tu yg nak disetelkan. errmmm… got to go. will write later. take care all!!!

i do swear that i’ll always be there. i’d give anything and everything and i will always care. through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse. i will love you with every beat of my heart

[ from this moment life has begun ]

[ from this moment you are the one ]

[ right beside you is where i belong ]

[ from this moment on ]

[ from this moment i have been blessed ]

[ i live only for your happiness ]

[ and for your love i'd give my last breath ]

[ from this moment on ]

[ i give my hand to you with all my heart ]

[ cant wait to live my life with you, cant wait to start ]

you and i will never be apart. my dreams come true because of you. from this moment. as long as i live, i will love you– i promise you this. there is nothing i wouldn’t give. from this moment on. you’re the reason i believe in love. and you’re the answer to my prayers from up above. all we need is just the two of us. WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOREVER… TILL DEATH DO US PART.

you are my sunshine | my only sunshine | you make me happy | when skies are grey | you’ll never know dear | how much i love you | please don’t take my sunshine away | the other nite dear | as i lay sleeping | i dreamed i held you in my arms | when i awoke dear | i was mistaken | and i hung my head and cried |  you are my sunshine | my only sunshine | you make me happy | when skies are grey | you’ll never know dear | how much i love you | please don’t take my sunshine away | i’ll always love you | and make you happy | if you will only say the same | but if you leave me | to love another | you’ll regret it all some day | you are my sunshine | my only sunshine | you make me happy | when skies are grey | you’ll never know  dear | how much i love you | please don’t take my sunshine away…

pagi tadi dr kajang, myKiNg gi keje dulu. me? me myself berselimut lagi kat atas katil dia. hehehee… katil dia tu nak melekat je dgn ana. hehhee.. agaknye sbb tuan dia lum leh lekat2 sgt dgn ana, then katil dia amik kesempatan ah kot.. ahaaaksss!!! ermmm before i proceed, got something for someone. miss miNe, thanks for the comments. dont know how to tell, but i believe that you know this guy well, right? it is not so easy to manage this dragon, but for the timing, it is still under control hehheheee… i am so happy that GOD make my life easier, happier than i thought, GOD created this guy for me to be with, to share every tears and joy, to have some fun making this guy miserable… hikhikkhikksss… pray for us ya. thanks and take care…

yeahh.. kat mana kita tadi ek.. jap, nak scroll up………. okeh babeh! got the point. what’s up? 2nd suprise for him last saturday. as we promised, after his master nye class, he will fetch me and we are planning nak pegi tesco, going to window shop and buy my things such as sabun basuh la, ubat gigi la.. etc. i wake him up at 730 dah, takut jadik cam last week, terbangun kan dia lewat sbb myself pun terlajak tido, so kucar kacir la sikit idup dia time tu sbb dah lewat nak gi kelas.. huhuhuhuu… then, about 900am, he did message me ’sayang, sorry takdapat keluar dgn ana. abg takpegi kelas pun. abg migrain. sorry and u take care ya dear’. lebih kureng camtu la ayat dia. hehehee.. actually i wont dissappointed at all pun, he spent a lot of time with me last week, so it’s ok la.. doenst matter. dia penat la tu, takcukup rehat. then i leave him alone to recover. lepas solat zuhur tu, i went to giant, kelana jaya and tgh siap2 tu something came to my mind. yeahhh… ahaaaksss… my man, wait for me yeah, i am on my way!!! after the mini shopping, i drive thru sg ramal luar, ahaakss.. cant wait to see my sick boy. ahaaa… cian dia… but in the same time, i think that, if i go there, he may not recover sooner, ahaaksss.. makin sakit la kepala dia bila buah hati dia ni dtg. mmg kena kacau je dia ni kang… then i have ti think twice la.. sian kat dia, but i miss him so much. then i promised myself, cik na, please jgn kacau dia. let him rest.. please ya cik na. it seems so crazy, but he know me. ahaaksss!!! ok, proceed! sampai kat rumah je, mak dgn ayah look so happy, ana takde la perasan, tapi it seem like they are excited and huhuuuuhuuhhu… look so happy. mak dgn ayah ckp, ‘na, tgk abg tu, abg sakit kepala.’ his mom wanna wake him up, hu-uhh.. cannot la, i promised myself already, taknak kacau dia. so, ana ckp kat mak, takyah la kejutkan myKiNg, let him rest kan. ana masuk bilik… take a seat kat tepi katil dia. i hold his hand, with a very romantic sight, i tell him that i am here, i want him to take a rest. GOD, he is smiling to me, then i can hear he said, ‘u suprised me again haa dear..’. my heart say ‘whatever for u my darling’. then i make myself at home la.. dia rehat dlm bilik dia, i leave him to rest, within 20minutes and masuk bilik and tgk dia. if he is so sick, ana suh dia berbuka je, makan ubat. dia taknak lak.. then, ana layan tv. kejap2 gi tgk dia…

nak dekat2 berbuka, dlm 630pm tu, i wake him up. suruh dia mandi… then buleh berbuka sesama. so, dia recover dah sikit. hehehee.. agaknye if i not promised myself, mesti dia lum dpt recover ek, ahaaksss.. cik na, you are so naughty lah! then, dia dah ok, malam tu pas buka, lepak2 jap tgk tv, ayah suh gi bank amik duit. then kitorg gi bank, pastu ge jenjalan jap, pastu g minum kopi. hehehheee…

on sunday, ana lepak umah je, dia kuar gi workshop, nak servis kete. ana layan tv la… then tolong kacau mak buat keje kat dapur. hehehee… secara ringkasnye that is what happened to me during my last weekend. i am so very happy. lain2… takde apa kot, sikit2 tu kena gak simpan sendiri ek. so, before i end up my writing, here a piece of conversation ana dgn myKiNg jap tadi…

myKiNg: ada testi pasal teletubbies la
myKiNg: hahahahahhaa…
cik_noiyy: cute tak?
myKiNg: cute sgt
cik_noiyy: sayang.. [turn on to the romantic mood ya]
love u so much.. i’ll die without u… cant express the words, cant show the love, but the truth is there, till the end of time.. my love for u will last forever! [nangis sikit, kuar airmata sikit je]
myKiNg: wow… so touching
myKiNg: thanks dear
cik_noiyy: u r most welcome

till then, respect diri anda, respond kepada persekitaran and relaxkan la minda anda dgn life yg easy… dont make things complicated yeah! bye…

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song: korban cinta by aris ariwatan. ana suka dgr lagu ni, the way diorg sing this song so good laa. Sedap didengar. and i think suitable jugak for my blog today. errmmmssss… korban cinta. sacrifice… what to say hah?!! kenkadang kalo ikut dari one pint of view, this is quite sensitive topis to tell, but in another point of view rasanye boleh dikongsi utk dijadikan teladan.. hehehee.. macam kisah dan tauladan lak ek.

last night we had a long conversation jugak… he told me a lot of things, about relationship, about sacrifices, about love, about life. everything is for our own good. i’ve got a lot of things last niight, and i think a lot.. sampai tido lewat ntah kul brapa… as usual la.. bila dia say something, i never give my comments sbb i have to think first. that is my way, dari dulu pun. org pompuan ni mmg kena control they way she think. sbb pompuan takpenah ada limit or break dlm berfikir. so, pikir je apa yg nak pikir, tak pikir dah mende lain. but for me,  i really need a space to rethink about whatever i’ve learned. it is not easy being in love. i experienced a lot of things, even not experienced it by my own, but i know it well. your give and take, your sacrifices, your strengths to go thru it all.. everything lah.

myKiNg sacrifice a lot for me… even i also doing the same thing tapi what he has done is more than world. sometimes i feel that i am not qualified to get his love. just look at myself, i am not pretty enough, i am so naughty, not really matured, always playing around as long as i have fun ahaaksss, and as he said that i am o stubborn!!! but for him, he is so patient, accept me as what i am. shame on me ya?!! i really love him not because he done a lot of things for me, not because he sacrifice everything for me, i love him for what he is. himself. it is just a first sight of love. i dont wanna lose him. i’ll die living without him. he is my world!!!

sayang, i am so sorry for what i have done. actually it is not because the reason of ‘it’s me, dah ana mcm tu, ana nak buat camana..’. it’s not that. it is just something that i cant think deeply. dont know how. errmmmsszzz… nak ckp camana ek to explain?.. i think u understand kan dear. both of us ada kureng and ada lebihnye.. semua org pun camtu. cuma kita mungkin lain sikit drpada diorg sbb kita ni totally 110% different. takde mende yg sama, cuma kita berkongsi satu rasa, perasaan yg payah utk diungkapkan dgn kata2. kita ada cinta yg maha agung ni. kita jarang berselisih pendapat, kalau ada pun biasanye kita akan duduk dan bincang elok2. kita jarang berkecik hati, kalau ada pun kita biasanye akan duduk luahkan apa yg kita rasa… tapi tu laa.. as usual, ana mmg takde apa nak ckp. diam seribu bahasa. tang ni mmg ana takmampu nak ubah dah sayang. u know me. i am so fragile, sensitive. even takreti nak luahkan mende2 tu time tgh2 sedih. and i try hard not to do so. biasanye ana akan diam dulu, kasik reda  rajuk ana, then baru kita discuss.. org pompuan ni kalo time marah suka ckp yg ntah apa2. so, to avoid yg ntah apa2 tu.. ana kena cool kan diri ana mcm tu la.. taknak keadaan jadik makin kronik. mmg kala tu ana sedih.. tanggung rindu kat abg lagi, mmg pilu laa bila ada masa2 kejadian yg mcm tu menimpa. but i think, it’s better to give u a silent treat, dr ana ckp mende2 yg ntah apa2 yg ana sendiri taktahu patut ke takpatut ana ckp mende2 mcm tu… u got me or not? then, silent is the best laa.. ana diam pun bukannye lama kan yang… jap jek. and thank GOD jugak sbb u are very good dlm pujuk memujuk ni… hehehe.. as i told u before la, ana merajuk abg pujuk, abg merajuk, abg gak yg pujuk ana. ahaakksss!!! u such a great man.

frankly speaking laa.. i am so happy being with myKiNg. he is so superb, 24hours daily always wanna make me laugh, nak ana senyum. cuma kekurangan ana ni la.. sikit2 je nak nangis. ye la kan… fragile la tuh. suka pun kenkadang nangis gak.. terharu pun nangis gak. nak wat camana… dah industan tu industan gak la yang.

ana sentiasa nak yg terbaik for myKiNg, sama dgn dia.. nak the very best for me! that is why la kot sometimes mende kat situ ada clash. lain2 takde masalah. tapi mende2 mcam tu as usual, mende kecik je. hehhehee.. cuma ana ni laa.. ana admit. tu la rempah ratus org bercinta kot ek sayang?

kita sama2 ada kurang, dan kita sama2 jugak ada kelebihan. bezanye, kat mana kita lebih dan kat mana kita kurang tu taksama. sbb tu kita opposite. we completed each other. kan sayang? i got to stop writing, something mess me up. will continue later. dear, thanks for everything, even my life cant pay what u did for me! love u till the end of time!

huhhh… really2 sick right now. homesick! what to jot down here? errmmm last night? ana bukak puasa sorg2… uwaaa… uwaa… my roomate takde, coz she thought ana bukak puasa dgn myKiNg, takpe it’s ok, misunderstood je kat situ. aikkk misunderstood lak? hehehe.. takde kena mengena dgn yg hidup atau yg mati ek. ahaaksss… semlm my menu is the menu that myKiNg taksuka. ahhahaa.. balik keje ana singgah greenwood. i thought nak pegi bukak puasa with my kakak ipar and my along, sebab tgh sedih semlm tu.. tapi malas lak. malas ah tetiba jek. then jenjln kat pasar ramadhan greenwood tu. takde apa yg menarik perhatian ana pun. takrasa nak makan apa2 pun. then lalu kat org jual soya bean, beli la sebungkus. then jalan lagi.. kat 3round tu, satu pun takmenambat hati. ahaaksss!!! pastu i pass thru pakcik tu, jual lauk asam pedas je.. mcm2 la ikan kembung ada, ikan jacket ada, ikan pari ada.. ermm tak menarik gak.. jalan lagi.. tetiba cam.. ok je la makan lauk asam pedas ni, balik kang masak nasik. so, ana beli la ikan pari masak asam pedas… yeeehaaaa… myKiNg taksuka makan asam pedas.. hahahahaa.. kita makan asam pedasssss!!! pastu beli satur sikit.. pastu balik. malas dah, takde mood nak jenjalan. bukak puasa pun tak berselera sgt nak makan.. amik syarat je la sbb nak buka puasa kan..

last night his student sms ana, tanye pasal diorg nye proj, ana dpt la advice and give them a few ideas. ok la.. but this girl aa… taktahu la kan. but she said that she is so excited knowing both of us, me and myKiNg. from her point of view, she said that we are a really great couple. ahaakksss… what nonsence?!! as i told her last night, kitorg ni biasa2 je, normal mcm kapel lain gak. by mean pun, semua kapel ada kureng and ada lebih dia.. masing2, the way we handle our pasangan. life ada ups and downs, ada joys and tears. kenkadang susah nak explain dik, once u involved in this kind of life, you will know better. u will experienced all on your own. on that time, you will know how to think. kita manusia ni takperfect, tapi sebaik2 kejadian Tuhan sis, i experienced dah life2 mcm ni. tapi i never regret for whatever i did. at least i have something that i’ve learned yg mungkin takde kat org lain. life not only for you to enjoy, but for you to feel the pain, the joy. bukan utk diri sendiri je, tapi influence jugak your surroundings. as u said la dear sis, tgk kitaorg ni cam best je kan? yeahh we show what we got la… bukan nak show-off but that is fact. semua org nak better life. not even better, nak perfect life. we plan as good as we can. semuanye keje Dia.

it is not easy for me to achieve my lovelife and generally my life sampai this level. jatuh bangun, suka duka takpernah takrasa. as myKiNg said, you have to sacrifice something to get something. once you decided, dont ever2 regret. no turning back! semlm pun i did told u byk mende kan pasal life ni. one sweet day, you will meet someone. your eyes will not recognize him/her, but your heart will give you the sign. you are deeply in love. i am crazy about this guy, since i know him .. he is not my type .. but my heart tells the truth. he will be my lovely husband.

sis, kitorg bukan takpernak berdepan dgn masalah, selisih faham or salah faham, pendapat yg bercanggah, penah.. penah sgt lalui semua tu besides both of us lak very2 opposite. dia suka, i taksuka, i suka dia lak taksuka… leo vs virgo… mmg mcm tu. tapi tu la.. toleransi, sabar tu kena la.. try to understand each other, terima sebaik2nye. mmg ada scenarios yg kenkadang buat myself kecik hati, terasa… tapi i try not to make it as big as the globe. even susah nak terima situation tu, kena amik masa jugak la berpikir dan terima serta faham kenapa mende tu jadi macam tu. ana lak kalau ada masalah, ana jenis yg diam. i dont wanna talk until i can figure out why this thing happened… ana mmg suka diam bila ada selisih faham or whatsoever ni… dah cool sikit then bincang kenapa jadi mcm ni, kenapa ana terasa sgt… that’s me la.. susah sikit la nak handle ana sbb dalm bab ni i am such a sentimental instruments, so fragile. ahaaksss!!! but myKiNg knows what to do with me heheheee…

sis, i write more later ek. life is a wonderful thing that u never have to pay even a penny pun. so enjoy your life!!!

huuhhhhh what a misunderstoog going on here?!! i thought it is so clear info. why it can be a misunderstanding hah? it is so simple… why? why? you are so tired then you cant concentrate on me or what? which part is the misunderstood part? i am so hurt, but i cant tell you cause you will feel so sorry for me, but then what should i do? crying? let my tears falling down? feel so sad? or what? huhhh… i dont even know what i am going to say right here right now, but for GOD sake, you really drove me crazy! how could you?!!!

huhhh… it’s ok lah. dont wanna mess you up. have a nice day…

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yeaahhh what a great weekend i had!!! cant describe but everything going so fine so superb! i spent my weekend ni kat kajang. very2 interesting lah. first, myKiNg taktahu i am going there. dia ada kelas master on saturday morning tu. ana mmg nak niat nak suprise kan dia, mmg nak drive sendiri ke sana sbb nye on monday nanti takyah la dia dtg amik ana kat opis memandangkan jalan pun sesak time2 puasa ni. so, kena faham2 la kan. ana taknak susahkan dia, mmg le ana mmmg malas nak drive, tapi tu laa. kalo dia dtg fetch me, pas bukak puasa dia kena patah balik ke damansara, antar ana balik then baru balik kajang. kesian ah kat dia. so, takpe. ana drive la weekend ni gi kajang. guess what. ana msg kat dia, just ckp ana nak keluar kejap dlm kul 1050am on saturday tu. dalam kul 1115am dia called tanye ana nak gi mana, dgn sape, urusan apa.. ana pun kelam kabut nak menjawab memandang kan ana ni takpandai sgt nak bohong2 ni. ana ckp la apa yg patut then terus hang off. dia kata dia pun nak balik terus. alamak aiii… not so sure kalau dia sampai dulu or ana sampai dulu kat umah dia. kalau dia sampai dulu, tak syiokk ah. so, ana speeding la jugak, kat ldp lak, time tu byk kete. alahai… tapi takpe, ana pikir nye pikir, kalao dia sampai dulu pun takpe la.. buat2 bodoh je la.. hahahaaa… jengg je jenggg ana sampai dulu. dah lepak2 and borak dgn mak dia, ana duduk depan, apa lagi bukak tv la.. jap tu dia pun sampai… sengih sampai ke telinge. heheheheee… dia kata dia geram sgt kat ana. hehehe.. nasib baik puasa, kalo tak dia dah makan ana dah hahahahaa…. but i can see his face, his eyes… he is so excited, dont u, dear? you love suprise, so … you know me! i had a really great weekend with u. kiorg gi pasar ramadhan sesama. he called the pasar ramadhan as param. whatever la.. ana mmg teringin ayam percik time2 puasa ni sbb dah terbiasa ayah ana belikan ayam percik utk ana everytime of puasa. ayam percik ni utk dimakan dlm kul 10pm iaitu after solat sunat tarawih. best tau.. so ana takbalik ganu lagi ni, nak manja2 dgn myKiNg lak la.. dia belikan ana ayam percik.. hehehe.. saturday an sunday kitorg gi param kat bdr baru bangi tu. syokk ah.. dia beli air tebu la, apa lagi. cuma ana je takbeli my feberet drink. satu jenis je dah memadai kot. ana takkisah mana, dpt ayam percik tu pun dah abih seronok dah tu. lagi lak dpt makan2 and ngengade dgn myKiNg. hehehee… mmg seronok ah. we had a great weekend together, i really enjoy. mungkin jugak last ramadhan ana tak berapa dpt enjoy ana nye puasa sbb puasa jauh dr semua yg tersayang. so, kali ni ana pulun la enjoy my fasting. thanks dear, i really had the happy weekend. thanks for the family member also. ;p.

ckp pasal puasa, dah cerita sikit pasal berbuka. ana nak story sikit la pasal sahur. kat rumah family ana di trg, kalo time sahur biasanye ayah d\yg prepare all the foods. ayah akan masak nasik dll. biasanye hidangan utk sahur kitorg semua makanan yg panas2. mmg seronok ah. kenkadang mak tak berapa berkesempatan nak siapkan sahur sbb ayah dah prepare semua. sbnrnye dr ana kecik2 lagi, ayah yg preparakan makanan sahur kitorg. bila semua dah siap hidang, nasik dah dlm pinggan, baru ayah kejutkan kitorg adik beradik. biasanye mak akan tersedar dulu la.. tapi bila mak sedar, ayah dah siapkan semua. best sgt sbb kitorg bgn basuh muka, basuh tgn terus makan.. takyah dah nak senduk nasik, tinggal senduk lauk masuk pinggan jek. miss those old good days!!!

kat kajang pun best gak.. mak kejutkan… tapi ana pun dah kureng makan time sahur, minum air kosong jek. first day tu, air mineral dah ada dlm bilik myKiNg tu, tapi sbb mak dah kejutkan, taksampai hati pulak tak bangun. takpe la takjamah nasik, at least ana ke dapur minum air. sahur tadi mak kejutkan lagi… siap bawakkan air kosong dlm bilik. alahaiiii… tersentuh gak hati… mak siap tunggu ana minum. ana ckp kat mak, takpe nanti ana antarkan gelas ke dapur, mak kata takpe.. mak bawakkan. so, bersahur la ana dlm bilik pagi tadi… hehehehe… wowww…

ana tido dlm bilik myKiNg… mmg biasanye ana tido dgn mak dia, tapi sejak 2menjak ni.. ana suka sgt tido kat bilik dia.. senang sgt terlena bila peluk bantal2 dia… dpat amik bau dia.. ntah la.. suka sgt. tapi tu la. kecian lak kat dia. lagipun semlm mmg takde intention utk tido dlm bilik dia, cuma semlm pak usu dia dtg umah, so ana dah ngantuk. ana masuk bilik dulu utk tido. dlm kul 1245++ myKiNg masuk bilik, kiss my dahi. ana tersedar. tapi takleh nak bukak mata. then he whispered to my ear "good night sayang, sleep tight". wowwww.. ana terus bukak mata. then ana ckp kat dia, ana nak beralih.. dia kata takpe. dia suh ana tido kat bilik dia je, takyah beralih. terharu sgt.

we had a really wonderful days actually, with laughter… with joy… sayang, thanks for the love u gave me! thanks a lot! okeh.. got to go. continue later ya!