… a SiMPLe mE …

hello all, hopefully i am not too late to wish malaysia and malaysians `merdeka!!! merdeka!!! merdeka!!! happy independent day`. so, our country dah 48th merdeka. as a malaysian, individually, apa yg kita rasa utk negara kita? adakah kesedaran betapa pejuang2 kemerdekaan dulu berhempas pulas menjadikan tanah melayu negara yg merdeka dgn nama malaysia. malaysia di tahun 2005, amat maju, membangun dengan pesatnya. terima kasih bukan sekadar utk pemimpin2 negara yg bijak menaikkan prestasi negara samada dr segi ekonomi antarabangsa, perhubungan serantau atau apa2 jua yg berkaitan, namun terima kasih yg tak terhingga juga utk perwira2 negara yg takpernah jemu mempertahankan keamanan dan keharmonian negara. ok.. cuttttt!!!

so guys, how`s your holiday? gi makan angin ke? me? balik kajang. planned on that date, nak pegi coket, nak tgk brg2 nak buat persiapan menjelang my big day nanti. tapi tu aaa… last minutes plan dah bertukau lak… nak wat canne kan… next time la pegi survey. actually, semlm ana balik kajang, planned nak gi coket with my fiance, tapi tu aa.. cancelled lak. then kitorg gi survey kat bangi, i bought a few things jugak la for my preparation. not much… persiapan yg biasa2 jek. my fiance? errmmm guess what? dia dah booking our baju for the big day. yummy yummy… cepat ek? takpe aa… dia dah ke arah nak kawin la tuh. kalau dulu, bukan main susah nak ajak kawin, tapi as i can see… pihak dia dah byk mende yg siap. hehehee.. my side? byk jugak, tapi yg penting2 lum lagi since ana pun keje sini, nak siap2 kat sana. so, i need to go back to terengganu la so i can settle those things with my parents, my siblings. any preparation. i am not so sure. kenkadang rasa mcm takpercaya je but i always thank to God sbb all this things happened and make myself so happy. life going to be so better. right man in the right time. but sometimes, frankly speaking, things going upside down. depends pulak kat kita camana kita control the situation. taksemua org perfect, terima everything happened tu seadanye… even sometimes we feel like boring, feel like susah nak ckp… tapi nak taknak, kena hadapi gak. even any situation, any condition, in anything pun… takde apa yg perfect.

semlm plan nak g coket tu takjadik… pagi2 kul 8 my mum called, `dik, ada shahrukh khan laa kat channel 8.` hehehee… skrg ni sbnrnye ana dah kureng tgk tv, kureng tgk shahrukh, dah lama jugak tak beli mr awesome ni punye movies. last movie yg ana tgk ialah cite kal ho na ho. after that, kalau tak silap.. movies dia such as swades, veer zara and main hoon na… ana lum tgk lagi… tapi takpe… not a big deal pun. tapi tu aa… semlm dpt gak tgk dia sikit kat channel prima. ok aa… walaupun yg screened semlm tu yg dah lama, asal ada shahrukh dah cukup aa… hehehehee… cam bagus2 je ek.. takpe masing2 ada idola masing2 kan. ana suka shahrukh, dah lama dah. suka tgk gaya dia dll la.. takleh eloborate lebih2, kang ada yg buat muka seposen kang. heheheee… so, anything else? taktahu nak cite apa dah… cite pasal life? sama je… love life? sama jugak… ntah le… ok aa.. pe2 hal nanti kita sambung cerita. adiosss…

hai guys… huhhh… how ya` doing? hope everything going so fine. actually ana ada draft a blog tapi rasanye no need la to publish yg drafted tu. i will write a new one here. it might be a long long story and might be not. i am not so sure. but today in my blog, i really wanna thanks to those that are very special in my life– beloved mum and dad, my siblings specially anyah and kaklang, my great father and mother in-law to be, and the one and only… and this special thanks goes in more than millions to my superb fiance. thanks a lot, cause always be with me, my ups and downs. i cant really pay what you have done dear, i am so thankful i got you.

(sayang, hope you dont mind psl cerita ni ek, this is not about dayus or what so ever, but what i have done actually for our own good and our future). last friday, got a msg from my ex– he called to meet me. yeaahhh something messy going on between us. i mean on the other side. then… when i think a lot, i think big. yeahh i nust meet this fellow to settle up everything that seem like never been settled before. on that time, abg belum online YM lagi, i know that i am not going to meet him with your knowlegde but, that`s it. ana nak abg tahu, and abg pun tahu ana takpernah sembunyi or bohong abg apa2. i try to be as sincere as i can and ana taknak ruin kan our relationship. this relationship mean so much to me. i`ve called a few friends to ask for their opinion… some said go, some said dont, some said depends on me bla bla blaa… i am keep thinking and thinking. yeahh must meet him. lagipun bukan senang nak jumpa dia, and bukan senang jugak dia nak dtg kl. ok fine, woopsss tetiba abg online lak. i feel so guilty. dont wanna break your heart, but please trust me this is for our own good jugak and there will be nothing happen between us. just wanna settle a few issues yg takpernah dpt nak settle with even 100000 phone calls. myKiNg did asked me, where to go, nak jumpa sape. yeahh as i aid before i`ll never tell u a lies. i am going somewhere in ampang area, masa tu dia tak decide lagi even dia sendiri taktahu jln2 kat kl ni. nak jumpa sape? i tell u the truth. tapi bila myKiNg dah keluarkan soalan `kenapa nak kena pegi jumpa dia?` so, that soalan dah matikan semua persoalan lain. kenapa? itu lah sbb nye tadi. going to settle a few things. then ana terus say… takde apa la.. nak jumpa kawan lama. first of all, ana taknak myKiNg risau and fikir yg bukan2. tapi i admit, it is my fault. cuma mungkin masa tu ana belum bersedia utk berterus terang memandangkan otak ana berserabut nak settle kan yg belah sana, nak jaga hati yg belah sini. but i really have to go.

i met him kat klcc. it is a quite tough conversation, tough meeting sbnrnye memandangkan we talk about the same points, the same topics. abg pun tahu ana mcmana kan… ana terlalu mudah kesian kat org, tapi bukan mudah utk ana jatuh cinta. ana cuma nak dia tahu and boleh terima keadaan yg sbnr. mungkin lepas dia tgk cincin di jari ana, dia realise yg ana tercipta bukan utk dia. hope dia akan sedar mende2 tu sampai bila2. susahkan bila kita nak org lain tahu yg cinta dan hati kita bukan milik dia– abg sendiri pernah alami nye… betapa teruk kesan mcm tu kat seseorg yg really want u in her arms. cume bezanye kita ialah cara u treat her, u are so strong utk semua2 tu… tapi ana? ana takcukup kuat utk ke arah tu. hati ana takmampu menjadi sekuat abg. even, ana sendiri kenkadang taksangka ana boleh jadi kuat dlm sesetengah perkara. tapi apa yg ana tahu, my love, my life is dedicated only for you. then.. dont you worry my dear, our conversation going on fine. takde mende yg menggugat ana pun. hati abg kat ana, hati ana kat abg… you know that kan?

then… something bad happens masa ana nak balik. huhhh… taktahu la camana. kete ana parked kat sblh klcc kena pecah. huhh… a few treasured possession dah lost. memula tu berdebar gak la… fikiran berkecamuk. but still can maintain la sebab kete tak ilang, even myself pun takde apa2. i called myKiNg, bgtahu dia what happened. then on the day, as usual ana akan balik kajang. so aritu kena drive dua kete laa, dia bwk kete dia, and i drive mine sbb nye esok tu nak gi workshop untuk fix kan tingkap yg kena pecah tu. and sekarang, mcm2 bermain kat kepala otak. dulu, februari 14, tahun 2000 if i am not mistaken laaa… ana gi jumpa mamat yg sama jugak, pastu dia antar balik hostel, ana lak termuntah2, sakit perut yg teramat sakit then ana kena admit kat hospital tawakal 3hari 3malam. huhh.. keluar spital tawakal tu, bill dia mak aii.. tapi doktor takdapat nak check apa sakit ana masa tu. ntah laa… tapi semua2 ni seem like mende nak jadi, lagi lak kita ni org islam, so itu la Qada` dan Qadar dr Allah.

balik kajang, my father and mother in law to be really help to recover my trauma. ayah sibuk kemas kan getah tingkap tu, mak pulak tak renti2 to make me calm. feel so ok la, mmg time tu i need my family badly. tapi the way myKiNg`s family treat me sama je macam family ana.

the weekend, myKiNg ke sana ke mari nak selesaikan case ni. dr kajang kitorg ke kl utk buat police report, kena pegi dua balai lak tu. mmg takcukup masa, then dia bawakkan kete g workshop. huhh.. kecian nye kat dia. sampai dia taksempat nak g kelas master. rasa guilty pun ada and rasa mcm ana menyusahkan dia pun ada. taksammpai hati. bila ana ckp kat dia, dia kata dia ok. dia kata dia takkisah. ye la.. ana taknak dia penat, dah le dia ni takleh penat lebih sikit, kang migrain la dia. tapi dia ok jek. malam hari sabtu tu, pas setel semua. kitorg balik umah. ana mandi, pastu terus baring je atas katil dia sbb ana jumpa `buku` favourite ana– dictionary. dah baca2 dictionary tu, ana terlelap. taksedar kul brapa masa tu. myKiNg kat depan, tgk bola selangor vs public bank. sedar2 je dah kul 4pagi. huhhh… abg tido kat mana lak ni? ciannye. nak kuar bilik, takut la pulak sbb gelap. alahaiii kecian la pulak. mana lak my prince ni tido. mula la ana taklena tido, pikirkan dia. so, ana layan la mata ana ni… sampai awal pagi, ana kuar tgk dia tido atas sofa jek. huhhh… sedih nye. kesiannye dia. ana kejut dia suh dia masuk bilik, sambung tido sbb kot dia takselesa tido atas sofa. sementara dia nak masuk bilik tu, ana tanye dia nape dia tak kejutkan ana, so ana bleh tido dgn mak and dia tido dlm bilik. dia kata takpe. dia takkisah. dia tahu ana letih, dia taknak ganggu ana tido. sedih nye ana dgr. dia ckp, 3-4kali dia kuar masuk bilik tu, tapi ana taksedar2 pun. so, dia tahu la ana letih. ana bukan letih sgt pun yang, ana tertido je hik hik hikk… ana tahu abg syg ana… thanks a lot dear.

then ahad tu kitorg plan nak g tgk new born baby– abg sepupu dia dpt baby girl on august 14th tu. sebelum tu, nak bwk mak gi kenduri lak. ana takut taksempat je sbb kitorg plan nak g cari something yg have to replace masa kete kena pecah tu. rasanye macam taksempat jek, tapi dia kata ok. sampai umah abg sepupu dia dah kul 3. cian la pulak sbb dah ptg sgt ni. tapi dia still ok cuma ana je yg taksampai hati. huhhh… kul 6 kitorg gerak g pj. sempat la jugak sampai sebelum kedai tutup. semua perkakasan ana dia yg bayar, even tingkap kete tu pun dia yg bayar gak. ana nak pulang balik duit dia, dia taknak. byk duit dia abih utk ana dlm masa 2hari je. ana risaukan dia, dgn duit kete, duit umah, toll, minyak lagi dia nak bayar… ana taknak dia short duit dia. cian sgt kat dia. ana mmg sedih, terharu and pilu bila ana dilimpahi kesenangan yg mcm ni. ana dah biasa susah dgn dia, tapi bila dia curahkan semua ni, ana rasa ana taklayak terima. he is too good. myKiNg said, kalo susah biar sama2, senang pun sama2. sedihnye dgr… tapi ana rasa abg byk susah utk ana. ana taksampai hati la tgk abg susah. ana rela ana yg susah dr abg yg susah. abg selalu ckp, kalau duit ke, apa ke semuanye abg takheran, even nyawa abg, abg sanggup korbankan utk ana. abg terlalu sayang kat ana. ana pun sama, sayang sgt kat abg.

ana taktahu nak ckp apa lagi, rasanye macam byk je nak tulis. ana takmampu nak luahkan betapa semua yg terdekat dengan ana sgt2 amik berat pasal ana. my family, my in-law family to be and my dearest fiance. taktahu nak say thanks mcmana pun ana taktahu.

anything, i`ll continue later. for you my darling… thanks a lot. sayang abg sgt2!

happy birthday to me… happy birthday to meeee… happy birthday to me… happy biiirrrttthhhdaaayyyy toooo meeee… cik na now dah sebaya dgn KiNg. hehehehee… caya la.. ana ada masa +- 2minggu utk sebaya dengan dia. so, inilah masanya… yeeehaaa. for those yg wish birthday ana aritu, i wanna thanks a lot to you guys ek. from sms, emails, e-card etc… thanks! 

my birthday… errmmm nice huh?! not that nice, it is so great. just imagine, you celebrate the special day, special occasion with your love one. is it good? yeeahhh it is more than good. sharp 12midnight, on early of august 13, he whispered in my ears. wishing me a very happy day. woww… he is so romantic isn’t he? with the sweet wording, i am so touching. hehehee… else? that’s all. mlm tu ingat nak gi makan berdua, sekali geng2 dia ajak dia main futsal lak. i dont mind la. takkisah pun, even in my mind, ana nak ajak dia g makan something yg different sikit dr yg biasa2. takkisah la. mo man tai. as long ana can be with him, then it is ok with me. simple kan? malas nak complicated kan mende2 kecik. mungkin sesetengah org, taksuka. yeelaa.. almaklum la, birthday kan. setahun sekali. mesti nak berdua2an je. tapi for me, mende tu quite simple. as long ana can be with him, everyday, every single second is so great. memula tu mcm tergejut jugak, mana taknye, sbb ana dah plan kan. tapi takkisah la, sbb bukan masalah besar pun. lagipun dia ckp elok2, discuss elok2. ana tahu dia tahu apa yg ana rasa, so sama2 faham la. tolerate jek. bukan rugi apa pun. mlm tu kitorg sampai umah kat kul 1 gak la. mak dgn ayah dia pun dah tido. ana pun siap tukau baju, pun nak terus tido jugak. semlm tu dah le tido kul 3.30am sbb my friend dtg tido kat umah, so melepak, berborak sampai kul 3.30. kul 6am dah kena bgn. hahahaa… mmg takcukup tido la kiranye nih. then, wish good nite kat dia, ana pun masuk tido.

esoknye, kitorg abihkan masa dgn shopping kat sogo. we had our lunch kat secret recipe, my favourite restaurant. hehehee… makan cake, etc… then, pas makan dia ajak g complex campbell.pelik la jugak sebab takde plan pun nak g complex campbell ni. ana tanye dia, nape? then dia kata nak beli something utk ana. tu lagi weird. hehehee… ana takharapkan apa2 pun dr dia utk birthday ana. last year pun, ana takharap apa2 pun. ana nak dia jek. cukup dah. last year dia buat suprise gak. kasik ana pen. ehhehee… ni haaa, apa lak cite ni. ana mmg takcaya la sbb dia bukan jenis yg suka bagi2 hadiah ni. so, ana dah faham sgt, then i dont mind. ana pun taktarget apa2 from him. dia dah spent time dgn ana pun, ana suka sgt. then i asked again, nak g mana nih? dia ckp nak cari kasut. ooo nak cari kasut utk hantaran la kot ek, ana pikir camtu je la. sbb kat campbell tu kan byk jual kasut. ana tanye nak cari aksut apa? dia kata nak g butik adidas. hahhh? takkan nak cari kasut kat adidas. tapi takpe la, i just pikir, kat adidas pun ada jugak kasual shoe. dia tarik ana sampai ke butik adidas tu. sampai je, dia terus amik handbag adidas. worth at.. wow, mahal nye! ana ckp ana taknak. takyah belikan pun takpe. ana takkisah. dia terus amik beg tu, dia terus ke kaunter, dia bayar. huhhh… kitorg selalu gak shopping kat butik adidas tu. pekerja situ pun ramah. aritu mmg ana ada tgk beg tu, mmg cute, tapi mahal. takmampu sgt le nak beli pun. lagipun nak kawin ni, kena saving. mende2 mcm tu kena tolak tepi dulu. tapi, dia dah beli kan… dia mmg someone yg very unpredictable. mmg takleh nak jangka. he is my hero. my mr fiance.

after that, balik ke sogo balik. shopping nye shopping sampai kul 7. hehehheee… seronoknye sbb dpt spent time dgn dia. when you have your love one always by your side, you can feel the heat! trust me! balik kajang. singgah restoran kawan dia, g makan2 jap. huhhhh penat jugak la, dgn takcukup tido nye, apa nye…

balik rehat. then… to be continue…

hey guys… since so long i not updating my blog. nak kata busy tu takde la jugak. sesaje membusy kan diri jek. lagipun kering ideas and not really in the good mood. so, what the story to tell ya’.

AF fever is over. as we thought, Mawi is the winner. he is not so superb, i dont have any ideas why teenages or sesape pun minat kat mr mawi ni. ok la, his voice mmg sedap, jarang sgt dpt dgr male singer yg ada suara mcm dia, and Jamal Abdillah. my opinion la kan, suara dia ala2 Jamal gitu. tapi taktau la coz i not fanatik sgt kat mawi, just support his career je. hope mawi boleh bertahan dlm industri seni tanahair, taklupa diri and always be himself. go go world.

lagi? hehheheee.. nak cite pun malu, kelakar pun ada. aritu (hehehheee) mcm cite hal rumahtangga lak.. cam takbaik jek. takpe, nak cite gak. cite sikit2 je. aritu ana merajuk dgn myKiNg. hahahahaa.. mcm yo yo oo jek. gatal sgt nak merajuk, hehehheee.. padan muka ana. rindu setengah mati kat dia. dia pun rindu ana jugak. tapi nak wat canne, kali ni ana sebak sgt. selisih faham tu sikit je. kalo ikutkan takde apa pun. mengong ana. heheheee.. saje nak test power la kot. tgk rindu ke tak rindu… haa ngkau, separuh gila di buat nya. mmg rindu aaa… kelakar tul la.. tapi sesekali gaduh2 sayang camni ok gak, mengeratkan lagi silaturrahim. mcm poyo tak ana ni? kuangg kuaaanggg kuaaangggg… dah, leh cite setakat tu jek. lain2 takleh cite.

huhhh.. skrg dah august. got to prepare for my upcoming big day. apa2 pun lum buat lagi. asik la belek majalah tu, belek majalah ni… tapi satu happah pun takde. nak shoppping? masa lak takde lagi. tgkk aa nanti canne, tanye myKiNg bila nak gi shopping. lagipun skrg ni tgh karnival, so leh la jimat byk2 percent nanti tu.

canne ek? hehehee… my secondary classmate nak kawin dah awal bulan semilan ni. hehehee.. gasak la, pas sorg, sorg, pas sorg.. sorg lagi. tgh tunggu queue la nih. tapi maybe time dia kawin, ana takleh nak share the happiness with her. before one day of my friend’s weds ni, my sis nye convo lak. so.. mmg takdpt la kot. alaaa emak kawin kan aku.

cik naa.. cik naaa… i dont know what to say. i always try to be serious, to be mature.. but i dont know la.. i am so happy with my life like this. hhahahaaa… tu yg myKiNg asik migrain je tu. pening layan kerenah ana. kejap cam gini, kejap cam gitu… aduhaiiiii… mmuuaahhhhssss… cayang abg!!! thanks for everything, i learned a lot since i met u, so a lot when u are by my side. thanks! and sorry about last few days nye story. hheheee.. ok, got to go. ada work nak disiapkan. sambung lagi nanti… cheeriooo babeh!